tuesday pics

Day In pictures

Early in the morning we drove down to Santa Monica beach to see the sunrise. Was sooo cold but so beautiful. I hope next time we go it will be a clear sky.

...and a long waited full moon :)

meaty eyed seagull

Wanted to go to the beach but ended up in the park as it was late afternoon...took some pics and made a few lil videos. Nothing out of the ordinary. These big bugger birds have yellow meaty eyes. Weird.

 Im not an egg person but yesterday I eat a big omelette among other things I lost patience to write down...as i eat too much and too many things. Cant seem to draw the line. Peanut butter samiches, cookies, some stew i cooked ...and what not. Bad, I know. Someone come slap me out of it. I eat my feelings and my frustrations I guess.

Gloomee day & DD

Hubby surprised me last night....early morning at 3 am with a new kindle fire. I was so excited I ended up playing with it till 5 in the morning and not much sleep. When I finally fell asleep I had a nightmare so i woke up again all sweaty and scared. Man, I was happy to wake up. It was one of those nightmares that seem so real and genuinely scare you. I was just laying in bed for a while with the lights on. I have been watching too many documentaries about ghost hauntings and paranormal things. 

What I ate today:

Smuckers on plain cookies

A glass of milk

A plate of pasta.

 Did not see the moon tonight bcus of the dense clouds....but here's an older pic I took last year  in august. 

Loooong day +DD (Diet Diary)

After 3 hrs of sleep I hit them roads to find my way to the other part of the city to run some errands...4 hours, a few missed buses, getting lost here and there LATER...I found my way. Zuuper hungry, thirsty and sweaty...ready to sit around for 4 hrs to get nowhere. 

 I rewarded myself with 2 cherry danishes and some chewing gum LOL....and Ill do it tomorrow all over again with more success!

 Its a cloudy night here and I learned on my way home , on the bus, that the star so close to the Moon is Jupiter...an unusual position ...was even closer yesterday

What I 8 today: 2 apples, 2 danishes, broccoli with cheeze.

Cant wait to sleep. Wash my face and off to bed i go -.- ZzZzZZzzzzzZzZzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzZZZZ

Diet diary 3 + moon

All day i was eating fajitas LOL...I stuffed in about 5 and i am eating a snickers as I write :-o

The moon getting bigger...I think of my family back home when I look at it...they see the same moon and sun that I do on this end. Im just so homesick i find myself looking for every lil thing around here that reminds me of home...smells, food, plants...anything

Diet Diary 2

Breakfast: tea (no sugar) and buttered bread

Dinner/Lunch: chicken soup and a baked chicken drumstick with potato salad and steamed broccoli

In between I had a Cheetos and a snickers >o<

pom pom crafting

This is what I did last night
Super easy to make pom poms that can really cheer up a sad or empty, boring corner of the house. We have quite a few of those in our new place....and i had a bunch of tissue paper that I didn't use. We moved here just a month and a half ago so our walls are still pretty much empty.. but I am working on it :)

 You have to put the papers -at least 10-on top of each other and fold them together into a fan then tie it with a thin or thicker rope (i used a thicker one) in the middle. U use bigger or smaller slides depending on what size pom pom  you want. You can start opening the slides one by one and shaping them the way you want....hang them in your room or decorate a festive table...especially for birthdays.

 
You have to use tissue paper (any color u prefer) because its soft and easy to fold. Back home we have silk paper which is very similar but with a more waxy texture.

diet diary 1 & blabbering

Every day I keep telling myself that I am going to take contol of my eating and my out of control sleeping habits. And every day I fail. Why am I so weak? I used to be someone on their game and what I thought will be a better , new start for me...all of my habits, my life balance just crashed n crumbled. Eating habits being the worst of them all.
So I decided on this thing I am gonna call Diet diary. I am going to take a pic of what I eat every day...and try to make myself do more exercise...aaaand get up at least at 9. Geeez. I scare myself sometimes whe I think of what I have become... feels like my life is out of control...and i am being carried by the wave of it. I know I have it in me...so many have it worst than I do and still have more control and strength than I do. 
So here's what I ate today: 
breakfast+lunch = breaklunch

• 3 tomatoes
• 2 boiled eggs
• 2 toasts with butter
• cayenne shot LOL
• tea and coffee not on pic

Dinner

cereal with milk

 and an on-growing pretty moon 

vampire days

Didn't feel like I have anything to wake up to in the mornings tho i am a morning person. Been going to bed at early morning...waking up late in the afternoon. Haven't seen much of the sun...so been enjoying the sunsets instead....and the growing moon :)

 as of my diet... I had 3 reeses cups last night, and 4 mini pack peanut butter m&m's ...and an omlette with mozzarella and 1 chicken sandwich...all after 6 o'clock. Geez. I am scaring myself. Still drinking my cayenne pepper shots. Gonna write about the pros and cons of that in a blog.

Crepes and croissant moon

 A crescent croissant looking moon is smiling on us. Yesterday was even thinner but didn't have my cam with me... just got a glimpse of it from the car. Its like a smiley face..all its missing is the eyes.

  

Soooo I also cooked them 99 c stuff into a meal... chicken with pasta and basil tomato sauce 

 and some crepes with strawberry jam for dessert.

Awwwh the jumping I'll have to do to feel better about it :-p

Worth buying 99 c store stuff

My husband being the only provider of our family, it is my job making that $20 bill last for 2-3 days worth of food. So I often shop at the 99 C only store for food.
Here are a few things that I bought there today and I personally consider them worth buying if you are on a very low budget as I:

• 12 medium eggs
• pastas (spaghetti, rigatoni, etc.)
• toothpaste
• facial tissues
• baby wet wipes (for adult use only in the bathroom >.<)
• Mounds (12 pieces  snack pack)
• Pasta sauce and diced Italian stewed, diced tomatoes
• cream cheese
• baby carrots
• cauliflower

(didn't take pic of everything)

Sometimes their lettuce, broccoli, baby spinach and tomatoes are fresh but wasn't this time. Onions (white or red), potatoes are a great buy too.

Shopping for food and cooking is pretty much what I did today. Some drawing, a few photos and some jumping around on music to end the day :)

Nights and days are pretty cold here in Cali...wish I brought some winter clothes with me..if i only knew.

Finding my old me

Sorta feeling better after my yesterday's "meltdown"... decided im gonna find the old me who was almost never sad. Being out of my comfort zone I slowly "lost" myself.. stopped doing the things I love.. started eating crazy, being lazy, not working...since i cant work right now...and letting my happiness depend on my husband. Feeling pretty much like a looser.
 I shouldn't do that. No one should. You have to be happy with your own person and not let the happiness depend on others...not your bf, husband, friends...cus i think that at the end of the day you are you, we stand alone, everyone is for themselves .. no one can make you happy if you are not happy with yourself...if that makes any sense? 

I have been blessed with a husband and a family that cares so much about me and care for my happiness (i am sooo grateful for that)but I am me and I stand alone....But, it is easier to say it than doing it.

• First I am gonna try to loose weight by eating less and nothing after 6 pm. Exercise more.
• draw, take pictures more cus it relaxes me and i am happy when i am doing those things
• listen more music that i love
• be more supportive of my husband, be more understanding
• be less selfish
• start something new, try new things

looks like a lil resolution for this new year. Did you make one? this is the month for it...make this year better than the last...make today better for starters. 

The belly i am trying to loose

Still cant look at a plane and not think about going home

The downs

A day spent contemplating on what to do...almost having a mid-life crisis. Ever felt like every decision you made was wrong and making them right seems like impossible?  What do you find your strength in to move on .... no one can insure you that the next step will be the right one.

Listening to my heart I left my home leaving lots of loose ends behind.....thinking i can start everything over. ...and I did...but its harder than I ever thought. But even the happy moments are bitter sweet with the feeling of that emptiness, of that hole called homesickness. Life just has so many twists and turns its better than any movie....For sure we are all have our crosses to bare and carry.... 

Gonna have a hot bubble bath and try to find the right "ending" for this crazy chapter.
BTW. Found this dirt cheap bubble bath at Ross last month(only $3.99). Smells deeeelish! 

The first "crumb"

There are about 7,038,044,500 individuals on this Earth. Isn't that amazing? ...more amazing is that we are all different....in amazing ways...hehe 
There are no two people exactly the same....everything that we "touch" leaves our "fingerprints" behind.... the way we talk, walk, write, behave, dress and so on.

Now that my life has changed so much... in good and less good ways, I decided to share some of my "more than crumbs"....I have a love for making pictures, drawing and so much more. As I am Not good with words,  i let the pictures and the work of my hands be those that speak for me. But before all, let me say,  i am not a pro in any way.. im just a simple I out here trying to leave my mark.

I chose this picture as the very first because it reminds me of my home, the place i miss so much....where I hope I can go back very soon.

What speaks of you?